Event Coordinators need money

Much to my dismay I will be unable to plan my church’s young adult group’s events. One less thing I have to worry about, but I was excited to be able to have a part in something - and an important part, at that. I would need money to get around, and I don’t have any. When I took the position it was in the vague hopes that my situation would have changed by now. I didn’t get “fired”, but I ruefully had to give the position to someone else. I did it of my own accord, because it is what’s better for the group. The person I handed it to has income and can get around better than I can. I hate that I had to give up the position for this reason. This is the way things were meant to be, however, so there’s nothing I can do about it.

The person I handed it to I was previously at odds with. I’m ready to not have any farther contact with said person for a long time after this. The communication was “If you can do better than me, by all means DO SO,” and I handed the responsible to them. I will not be attending the meets as I don’t want to be around this person, for the time being. There are other factors that have generated this outcome. It’s not just about the online group. I’ve stopped talking to this person before, so it’s no surprise this has to repeat itself.

This all took place on the dreaded faceblahk, but I’ve deactivated my account. With being active on that group I was spending more time on that site than I ever care to, so now I’m going to be off it for a while. I also don’t want to have to go on the site and look at anything else about this. I feel depressed and ashamed about this situation. It’s not just about the group, it’s about money. I don’t have any so I can’t do anything. I don’t want someone to always have to give me something. I want to be able to do things on my own.

Fuck you, Shreveport. And, fuck Louisiana.

Happy New Year, 2013! Reiki and Palm Reading now?!

So, it turns out I had the basic palm reading stuff I was looking for since I started looking for it. It pays to go through the saved bookmarks, doesn't it? It's much more of whole hand reading, than just palms - as I'm willing to learn all of it! I'm also going to become serious about taking up Reiki this year, but maybe more later, than sooner in the future. I'm also going to look into what rune reading is! I'm going to get back into refreshing my sign language, as I went so far as to put I know it on my resume! It's not that I don't know it, as much as I don't have anyone to sign to on the reg to keep it on my mind. Also, Spanish and Japanese. I'm going to get back into trying to do something with those.

I still haven't started my dreads, due to money issues. I'll have a big long fro if I don't do something it very soon! My hair is well enough past acceptable length to start them. I don't want my hair to random lock together, because I want my dreads an organized certain size. I'm still belly dancing, just not everyday. I think something seasonal is going on with me, right now. Also, I still feel like I'll be more into it when I get some belly dancing stuff. I'm going to look into Wiccan/ Pagan, UU, Buddhist items, as well.

I don't start off my New Year('s Day) with partying, and drinking (like I wanted), so I watched some anime! Neon Genesis Evangelion  to be exact. If I can't party and drink I may as well do heavy reflection on life. I didn't watch EoE, because I don't care for it. I finally read vol 2 of Megaman ZX, re-read NGE: AC (and it sucked just as much as it did the first time I read it - if not more, in retrospect , and I will soon re-start .Hack. I don't know why I'm still putting it off. Maybe there's only so much reflection I can take at once. I stay in celebrating the new year until the Chinese New Year celebration is over, so I have a lot of time to do everything that will make me happy, and bring in the new year like I want!

I want to take my GED test this month, but money issues might be getting in the way of that. Speaking of money, I'm still looking for work, but I know to enjoy my all this free time I have. I'm going to put some of it into a comic, that I'm looking to launch this month! If not this month, in the near future. The details on all that are in my LJ art blog.

That's it for now.

I sad.

Friday I only made 3 dollars in tips.
Today the owner of the cafe called and told me not to come in.
It's slow, and she needs the tips for herself today.

I was already dressed and ready to go so i went downtown, and looked for work. I actually found a place, and the assistant said she'd talk to the boss and see if she can get me an interview. That's a good thing, but i feel like shit! It feels like i'm back stabbing the cafe boss because she's really nice to me. If I get another job I won't be available to her all the time, anymore. I'm not quitting, and this doesn't mean I'll never see her or the others again. I'm just being randomly emotional, for no reason. Also, i don't really think I'm going to like the place. I'll try anyway, just to see how long I can last. I might like it, on the other hand.

I talked to a friend i haven't heard from in a while. He told me there are alot of lazy people at his restaurant (high school students that don't give a fuck), so if i can find a way to get over there and find the place I'm gonna help him out. He's over there doing all the work alone, pretty much. Everyone else sits around and talks all day. I won't do it to get the job. I'll just walk in, grab a broom and get to work HELPING HIM. I hate it when lazy people get jobs, and people that WANT to work, like me, have little to no where to go!

I may feel better tomorrow, tho. I know I'll feel better when i see me ON TEEVEE!