I'm going on REVAMP.

All I can tell you now it the last few years of my character making life have been a lie ,but that's part of the reason i'm so insecure about my art.

I just put some serious thought into it about an hour ago. I've been tiring to be more like someone else because they get noticed for their characters ,and i don't. I thought tiring to be like them would make it better ,but it didn't. It didn't make it worse on that hand ,but i upset a friend in the process. Now i know it's been so long i didn't even know what i was doing wrong until JUST now. I was into the idea of revamp my old characters ,but it's my newer ones that need the help. My old ones need to be more "stabilized" settings. Anything i've made within the past 1 - 3 years needs to be looked over for a COMPLETE revamp. I took some simple words to bring all this on. I posted in SA and MB forums asking people what do people want to see these days. SA not really the help i was looking for. MB - VERY helpful, without the smart-assery which was VERY nice. It was basically a "Be yourself" thing ,and that's what made me see that i wasn't myself.

I've been having more of an artistic identity crisis. I know my art doesn't suck ,but i shove it down my own throat that it does. When someone tells me i suck i just say "That was long espt before you got here" , "Well, d'uh" or something snappy but still in agreement. I'm not one to feed the trolls or entertain rude people (here i just delete the comments) ,but it's hard to make scene of how i can take that well ,but get upset when a friend gives me constructive crits. I don't outwardly say anything against it, but it's like a stabbing on the inside. It's like a can take it - I say "Thanks" for it and if i really think it's good advice i'll see about working it into my style- ,but it still stings even tho i know it's only to help and not to hurt. I'm not saying it makes me want to cry ,or anything. It's like a "I know what's wrong with me. You don't have to rub it in." feeling ,but i'll still go with it. I guess how you outwardly react it what matters. The only think I don't accept is when someone with a style i don't like tries to tell me about mine. I can give i polite "Thanks, but i'd rather not take advice from you" but to some that's hard to sallow. It can be seen as rude ,so i only say that when i think the person's being rude to me.

I still have alot of stuff to scan ,edit ,and upload ,and i will as i go along with this ,but i'll be busier ,and tiring to focus which means hanging out less. I'm gonna make revamping a higher priority ,and not try to go in any order like i usually do - which ends up failing.

*kisses and hugs*

You gotta FIGHT for your RIGHT! - homo

Like i said ,i support gay rights and marriage.

However, the fight seems weak.

Firstly ,the symbols that "represent" gays prides.

An upside down pink triangle ,and a rainbow flag... NO! HELL FUCKING NO! What kinds of symbols of showing power and authority are THOSE!? Rethink that.

Be more aggressive ,and even brutish just like the gay bashers.
People are willing to kill you just for being gay so you need to act like you are willing to kill them, too.

People die for love all the time ,but you don't get credit for it if you don't let it be known why you did it. If you're gonna kill yourself because you're gay tell the new channels first, or something to make your cause noticed.

For a more aggressive view i suggest being more like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQ1I_-MY_NY

or this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3S0N3bIeFrM

I'm black. People about to debate ,fight ,kill ,and die for me to have the civil rights i have today.

Take note that alot of the old arguments on why I shouldn't have rights ,or marry other races are being used again now. It was also a slow progression, so gay right may not be accepted in our life time ,but do it for the kids!

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And THAT'S what i have to say on THAT!

Good luck to ya! ... or maybe "us" ,after all.
I prefer my same gender ,myself.

I support gay rights and gay marriage!

Not just because i believe in human equal rights ,but all arguments against gay rights and marriage are based on unfounded opinion ,and religious belief.

I have scientific and psychological proof and studies backing up why i think letting gays marry is a good idea.

This is a VERY short vers: of the scientific and psychological part. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PooEhBxh0NY

Here's a long vers. It's an hour: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eWmw40ks2yU

Of course this a civil matter ,so getting the rights aren't easy. You can't just have the SMART factors at hand.

You also have to use brute force to get your point across ,just let the homophobes that are willing to beat up gays as a way of proving THEY'RE right.

Civil debates aren't fun and games ,so you have to get your hands dirty. Gays are gonna have to kill ,die ,and debate for rights. Don't at like you can't learn anything for how blacks got rights.

Blacks died for me to be able to sit on an unsegregated bus. What do you think you'll have to do TO GET MARRIED?!

I'm not gay but if i choose to get with someone of my gender ,and i decide i want to go through the trouble of get married i want the choice.

Also, adopting child(ren).

On both issues I believe love is not based on gender with your partner or a child(ren).

I don't have any good gay examples ,but i do have ALOT of my own personal proof that just because its a hetero couples doesn't mean it's meant to work out.

Being homo or hetero doesn't make you who you are or decide how good a parent you are or will be.

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That's where i am on it.

CONBADGES coming soon!

I'm come up with a new thing i wanna do... CONBADGES!

I won't start NOW ,but they'll be coming up soon and they will be FREE FOR FRIENDS! Or we can trade if you want ,but i'll be more on the picky side. I'm gonna wear them in public ,after all!

People that aren't my more personal online buddies will have to pay (when i get paypal) ,but don't worry. They'll be cheap! I really don't believe in charge ridiculous prices for something I love to do!

I can see WHY some people do it ,tho. They're so good they have to have high prices so not to get flooded by people.

However, we all know kills are worth ... MAYBE $5... maybe. I might charge 10 ,tho ,just for the hell of it. Still cheap, right? I need to buy stuff to do it with. *shrug*

If someone wants to guide me on the right way to do commissions ,please do. I don't want to get ripped off ,or anyone to think i'm ripping them off.

ANYWAY,

I was thinking about starting this weekend ,but i'm not sure. It will be a weekend soon ,tho.

I luv u GAIS!

Oh gosh! A NOT sad journal!

I went to class today! I got alil math done, and i fell good about that. I tried to give it to her ,but she'd rather check it while I'm there. I was tiring to give it to her after class to NOT have to go through that, but oh well.

I never seem to have much bad to say when i go downtown. This place sucks ,for the most part ,but not everything. This time of year some lil restaurants let guitarists place outside their places. I never go down without money ,cuz i feel bad if i don't give anything. I like that kind of stuff ,becuz it shows who we really are. Not just just a bunch of loud mouth ,rude ,ghetto, white trash ,and red necks. We're people with talent and skills. We're very extremely miss guided by a thieving ,corrupt government.

Not everyone can leave ,so those of us that remain have to make due. Right now ,i'm happy with the way things are. Change always hits me hard ,no matter how fast or slow it comes. It's scary ,but if it nots to be done just do it.

I think it's time for market ,so i'm gonna try to catch it, while listening to the guitarists! We have a old style market place downtown. People get there spring harvest and selling it. Yeah... OLDE SKOOL!

Now... i take shower ,change my bed sheets.. and maybe DDR if not a nap.

I can NOT believe myself right now.

I went all of Spring Break without doing any math. No harm as long as i do some today so i'll have something ot give the teacher for tomorow. I was gonna go today ,but I shouldn't without some work done.

I'll start doing some math right now!

...hahha... Anyone know anything about math?

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I'll be making a video later on today about that stupid Miss Cali bitch. California

I don't watch those things. I saw it on youtube. I'm glad she lost, tho.

I see all those videos being deleted because of the hate comments they're spawning (and copyright).

Good News and Bad News

Good News

- Gonna get my GED soon!

- A friend might be coming over today! Haven't seen 'em in years!

- Team Fortress 2 retard parody videos are AMAZING!

Bad News

- My crack buddy in Malaysia has throat cancer.

- I need a new mattress.

- I'm lonely. I want more friends ,and a mate.

Neutral News

- Looking for a job ,again.

- Comics will start after I make a few checks.

- I have Twitter ,so add me https://twitter.com/Tatsuyoujo I don't Twitter my every move. It's the only thing I can do on my cell phone.