I got my GED!

I'm so happy! I'm filling out order papers for a grad ring, and dipolam cover. Now I need to think about college. I'm thinking about taking cooking. I asked a friend what they do at his community college, and I was surprirsed at how fast I was to pick cooking. I love art, and I'm never going to stop drawing and creafting, but I just don't want to go to a professinal school for it. I'm not going to a job related to it. I don't do so well with the pressure of perfection, deadlines, and drawing things i don't like. I might do that mail order thing on TV, but drawing is for my enjoyment.

I told ALL MY FRIENDS, but I haven't told any family, yet. I don't think they'd care much, but i might mail my grandma. The friends i heard back from are proud of me. OThers are having phones problems, as am I. When I get off this prepaid train my problems will be lessened.

Now other stuff.

I've gotten hold to some anime movies from the library. I watched Tokyo Godfathers, and Paprika. Non- anime, I watched Milk. I hate I'm missing Fullmetal Botherhood, but if it does well enough CN will play reruns. Damn comcast boundling is what keeps us off. If one gets cut off, so does the other when it's boundled, so we're stopping that. We might go back to AT&T for interenet. We can't get satillite here, so we don't have a choose that matter.

I've been tring to get on at Johnny's Pizza House fr about a week now. They keep saying they'll call me back, but don't. Fuck it. I'll go to Wal Mart. I just don't want a job where I have to put on any steel-toed boots, for a while, at least.

I heard about the "Vampire" running for President. Firstly, Twilight isn't the cause of problems like these. You're giving it WAY too much credit. People are just fucking insane. Welcome to the NEW sicoity(?).

Mother's gone to Jacksonville, FL, to see what's going on there. She'll be back Sunday or Monday. THAT MEANS I CAN DRAW ALL DAY WITHOUT HER YELLING AT ME ABOUT IT! If she likes it, we're moving there. If she doesn't she's going to look at Tulsa, OK. Either way, if she likes better there then here she might quit her job. The future is always unclear.

I have 2 new stories. Summaries in my LJ blog.

I think I should seek professional help for my paranoia. I know this is no way to live.

I've made it a habit to go to a casino and just get drinks, with or without money. Usually, without, but who gives a fuck!?

That's it for now from me. How are you?

I can throw tags, too

I read about the guy that got arrested for having loli manga, in which in lolis were victum of rape, and proforming beastiality. The asshole pled guilty, and got somewhere around 10 years, in guessing. It's fucked he just pled guilty, like he did something wrong. The guys in jail are going to think he really did something and try to kill him. He's going to do 2 or 3 years because of the threats, if they can get him out before he's dead.

The last time this happened a few years ago it's like no one cared, but everyone is running scared, and reforming all sorts rules and whatnot. Even Rule 34 (the site, for those you that don't know there is one) is seeming like they're taking down some content, but it's Rule 34 so that's up in the air. I remember someone commenting "This is just one of those things that's a shgock at first, but then everything will go back to normal." I don't know if they'll be a "normal" after this. The reason why THIS story is so big is because the guy had so much of the content. But really, what were the police there for? Did somebody rat out his stash, or what?

What's biting my butt is how everyone is running in far of a goverment WE'RE suppose to be in control of. The man went to jail for COMIC BOOKS! I'm the only person pissed off an innocent man went to jail, which is agianst the consitution?! Isn't this a law Bush made? Isn't that good enough reason to argue it? There wasn't alot of argue aginast he was doing while he was in office, but he's not there anymore.

People pipe up "I HATE PEDOPHILES!" I hate pedos, too, but that's not what we're talking about. Pedophiles actually hurt people. What the hell is a comic book or a cartoon hurting?

Where are the protests? Why isn't anybody mailing or calling the people that have the power to remove/ alter such laws so innocent people don't have to go to jail?

Now that I think about it, I suppose no one thinks they'll get cought. If someone else gets cought they're just the loser of the pack. It's like downloading music. They can't catch everyone, but it just sucks for those that get cought.

I think that if there was suddenly a ban on violent imagary people would be in an up rawr. So it's ok for you to slash out a child's eyes, but touching them in the "no-no" places is the only crime agianst humanity?

I noticed something else. So far, i've only seen guys get in trobule for this, and actually go down for it. Try to pin this on a woman, and common sence might kick in. A female would actually say "They're comic books. They're not hurting anyone." "God" forbid they didn't have any of sort of proof or so much as hinting of any other "pedophilic activity. Then, there would be an actual "shit storm" of protest. I don't know if that hasn't been brought up up, but I suppose no one really cares what you think when they've already slap to "pedo" tag on you.

I can throw tags, too, tho.

You play violent video games?

You're going to do a school/ work shoot.

You listen to rock music (screamo, death metal, etc) ?

You're also going to do a school/ work shoot.

You're a furry?

You yiff. No exceptions.

You're not christain, jews, or catholic in the USA?

You worship Satan.

You've been viewing porn before 18?

You're a perverted delincant. You've also raped or molested at least 1 person before you were 20. If you haven't, you will.

You view porn at all?

You're a pervert that will look at, and get off on ANY porn. You also don't have a mind of your own, so you think how things work in porn is how they work in real life, thus leading to you raping or molesting someone.

You like violent imagary?

You mutalate others, and/ or yourself. At most, you're a serial killer.

You like cartoons or comics?

1. If you like them into "adulthood", you're mentally ill or retarded. Highly immature, and can't take anything seriously to the point where you need services, meds, and a check.

2. You live in your parent's basement. All you do is masterbrate to toon porn, and geek out over your fiugerine collection.

3. You're over wieght, covered in zits, and connect with other people is forbidden.

4. You do cosplay, and it's horribly done.

5. Toons/ comics are all you talk and think about. You drive other people off with it, and you wonder why you don't have any friends. "Normal" people don't like cartoons.

You like paintballing, water gunning?

You're training for the school/ work shooting. At best, you'll be a well known assassin. They don't make a bad living, tho... GO FOR IT!

You have a large gun?

You have a small penis.

You have a tung ring?

You give out oral sex, all the time.

You have tattoos?

If you're a female with tattoos, you're a whore.

Males with tats are extermely violent, and heavy drinkers.

You have your GED, instead of you HSD?

You're a lazy failure.

You going to Community College, instead of state or a famous high standard college?

You're just doing it to have somewhere to go, and something to do. No one takes CC seriously, because it's for poor people or people to lazy for "real" college.

You're a stripper?

1. You have no soul, thus less of a human being. So it's ok to ball up the money and throw it at you.

2. You have 3 - 10 kids at home.

3. You're doing this to work your way through school, at first. Then, you drop out, but you continue with the same story so people will pity you, and add more tips.

Just to show I'm not a pussy, I'll do myself from what I have here.

I'm not going to do a school or work shooting. I don't worship Satan. I've never raped, or molexsted anyone, nor do I think what I see in porn is real. Already said, I'm not a killer. I have mental issues, but I'm not retarded. I know how to take things seriously, I'm not over wieght, nor covered in facial grease, and I make open connect with others. I'm not going to do a shooting, nor will be an assassin. It would be hetic on my social life. I'm not a failure. The fact that I'm getting my GED means I'm something. Failing is just giving up.

Some things don't apply to me.

We don't have a basment.

I would cosplay if I had the money to.

Woman, it's 6 am!

Bad spelling and grammar.

Mother started yelling at me at 6am of all times of the day.

Yelling about how I'm wasting another year of my life, when it's February.

How I'm wasting my youth, when i'm 21.

She compares me to other people with different lifes and situations.

She tells me how things were when she was growing up, like that matters. She was upper middles class, now we're lower middle class.

She threatens to kick me out.

The usually run-of-the-mill.

I haven't had work in 2 months, far enough, but when you say i'm "wasting" that makes it sound like i've done aboustly nothing. She compares me to my sister's, whose and situations are dfferent then mine. She kicked the oldest out at 16 or 17 (i don't really remember), but she had a bf to stay with. They had kids by the time they were 21 and I don't, so how are you going to compare me to that? They had heavy responsiblities and priorites pushing them that i don't have at 21. I've done my share of fucking up and giving up, at this point. She yells at me because she thinks i don't (at least) feel bad, because she doesn't see me feeling bad. I dont like being here all day by myself, with or without cable/ internet. I'm noticing a pattern, tho. She only yells at me when the cable and internet are off. It's not just about that, she yells in general. And she has developed a habit of not taking her blood pressure meds like she's suppose to.

What really gets me is when she yells at me for doing things she asks me to do. She fusses when I didn't tell her when we're out of something. She fusses when I do tell her were out of something. Then when I say "Well, you said do/ don't tell you" the subject turns around on me and what I'm not doing. This last yelling was about me telling her we're out of stuff, so I guess I just won't until she yells at me agian. Seems to be the only logical thing to do.

Based on what she said, and she was yelling about, i take it that she thinks I'm not being productive because she doesn't immeditely see it. The reason I don't do anything while she's around is because she's a distraction. When i'm on the phone she'll yell as if she's trying to ingore I'm talking to someone. When I'm working on some she'll pesture me with trying to help, or looking up something for her at the same time. Therefore, I just don't do the stuff while she's around, like when I clean. If I clean while she's here she'll nag and pesture me about how I'm doing it, or even in the order I'm doing it in. When she's not here I clean in peace, and she doesn't complain when she gets back, because the point is IT'S CLEAN.

She also threatened to kick me out, agian, but I'm already starting to be mentally perpared for being homeless. If she's going to move to FL i'm going homeless, anyway. We're basing this off what is and isn't seen so I'll just be be out when she gets here, and practice being homelss for a far hours, if nothing else. I've befriended some homeless people, so they can show me the ropes. I have 2 people I can stay with, and 1 of them can help me get a job where he's working, so I can actually have a ride with him. He's out in the stickes, tho. The other one doesn't have work until it's time time to do yards. I'll concider them, both.

Mind you, while she's yelling at me, there's nothing in there about how she's or anyone else tried to help me and I fucked it up. I'm just in a position where I need more of a leg up then others. If someone can help me get to the point I can take it from there, and do pretty damn good. I can do my best, at least. After the yelling itself, she started talking about how good she had as a kid and up until she was 40. Until she was 40 she had people to run to when she needed something, and had easier then I do. I don't have anyone to run to for money, or many others I would concider staying with if something happened. I'd be out of the streets, either way.