Monday, May 25, 2009

My time at MudBug 09! - May 23

I went to mudbug Madness! I haven't been there in YEARS so I was very happy i was able to go this year. I wasn't disappointed either. I got there at 2 something and looked around first. Of coruse it was mostly crawfish and beer ,with the Cajun and Country music ,but that's what you have to love about it to go. I love crawfish ,but not as spicy as its usually made and i hate beer so I didn't buy either from it. Also, crawfish is high at the event ,and i know where to get it for cheap. I went out there for the music and to see what's going on.

I got:

Ticket to get in
Cinnamon Cashews
Cajun CD
Artical of clothing signed by said Cajun Band (i'll tell what is private chats)
Light up (raver) binky
Necklace (for mom - black and gold symbol the Saints football team uses)
Dallas the Fire Guy pic. He signed it ,but the ink came off in my purse. That's ok ,tho.
Rockstar Punch energy drink
A SHIT LOAD OF PICS ON MY CAMERA PHONE! 8D

I spent most of my money. I only have a dollar left. I get paid every week so that's ok. I went with $40 and I didn't waste a dime, because I had a geart time.

The bands were awesome, and the CajuNations (the band i bought the CD from and signed me) where so tight! They did alot of songs ,but not alot of the ones i like are on the CD I got. That's fine ,because one song is and either way I'm support them ,so I'm good. I helped 'em out cuz 2 (maybe 3, or 4) of the bands members looking at me. The dude singing said something about me ,and pointed to me while he was singing. I couldn't resist such nice treatment ,so I helped 'em a bit. 2 guys danced with one. One an obvious fan of the band ,and the other just wanting to feel me up. The fan was nice, but the other guy was a creepy ,and when he grabbed at me keys -which were connected to my pants- i wigged my finger at him and he went away.

When the band got off stage they signed the CD ,and me (and others) and departed. I think one of them wanted to try to bang me. I donno why I would think that ,but i was acting what might considered groupie-ish ,but that's what groupies do. Not that i didn't find the person attractive ,but that can't be the only reason I'd let someone do that to me. Well, it wouldn't be. The person DID have a talent at what they did on stage ,and I like people with talents and hobbies ,and can entertain me. It wouldn't be like that ,however. It would just a "groupie" thing ,and I'm not into that. I got the whole band to sign me ,and that was awesome.

Dallas the Fire Guy was all win. The first time I was him was great. The last time at the night showing ,however, he dropped a flaming stick and it got near me. It could've hurt 2 people ,but that was kinda funny ,too. He missed up a few times ,but can't blame him. Surely he was getting tried - because i assume he's been doing it all day. Anyway ,the first time i was him everything went perfectly. I actually did recognize him from TV (including the RHCP's music video ,but i forgot what video he's in), and it was an honor to see him. He did great stuff ,and fire is awesome so big thumbs up to him. I gave him some money ,too ,and I was glad to help.. and that's how I got the picture.

There are games at MBM ,but I didn't play anyone. I just did booths and bands.

I'm glad i went out. Let's see what next weeks check will get me!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Considering Tumer's gender *OMFG ART RELATED*

Tumer

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1064243/

I know it has male on it already and I'm not gonna back on an thing and change things on old stuff because he was male at the time. However ,now on considering making Tumer my first officially espt TRANSGENDER character. Male tran - Cunt boy. I already thought he up with a penis and a vagina. If i do go with a penis and will be a small one.

I've put alot of thought into it. Here's some of what i got.

Penis - small : 1 or 2 inches.
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It would matter to him until someone at school finds out ,and starts teasing him about it. It can go blackmail so no one is told ,or just get around. Tumer's not one to give into being victimized so easily ,despite he apparent psychical weakness. It gets around school, but Tumer still doesn't care, because he doesn't plan on having an sex anyway. Of course the big guys (jock jerks) start picking on him ,and he still doesn't care until they start forcing him into sexual acts (for real reasons i haven't thought of yet). Not only on them ,but others regardless of gender. Tumer doesn't tell anyone for a while because he figures no one would care about him, but he finally has a break down after months of it going on ,and some escalation of activity. At first it's just hand and blow jobs ,but after Tumer stars being threatened with anal rape, and he thinks there's a good change he may have already been. Adrain (formally named Quiney) manipulates his cruse to punish not only the jocks ,but the person that originally tried to blackmail Tumer. He doesn't kill them so the authorities and their parents handle their more "lawful" punishment.

Later characters come in ,and when an adult one finds out Tumer is once again subjected to threats of sexual abuse. However this adult in far from human ,and there's lil Tumer ,Adrain and most anyone else they know can do about it. He already has a history of harassing Tumer before hand, so it's doesn't end up being a surprise that this would happen.

I have the male mostly set up except for his name, and his might have some family. He's no human ,nor necessarily a "demon". He'll mostly end up something that will only apply to the story he's in. The way he finds out about Tumer somehow finds him naked or something - chicle shower scene or whatever. Being the sadist type he'll give out a "Aww, how cute. I didn't know I was babysitting today/ night ," or something along those lines. Then he'll start randomly grabbing and groping Tumer and saying things like "It's so small. I wonder if it works like a normal sized one." i'm still working on all that ,but I got it pretty down.



Vagina - Haven't decided if he can breed with it or not as of yet.
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Tumer's life is more difficult ,as you can imagine. Boys have penises ,and girls have vaginas, but he's been estpd as a something that LOOKS like a boy ,but his a vagina. He's refereed to as male, but he doesn't like that because ,like said, boys have penises. He can't be called a girl, because he doesn't look like one ,without extra effort. He actually looks gender-indifferent if the face ,but most of his body is a believed (weak) male. He develops an unhearted demeanor about the subject, and when he reaches the age where hormones are in question with a sexual drive he turns hateful and foully twisted minded claiming he'll never have sex ,or fall in love. He believes no one will truly love a freak like him. Add the vagina on top of him being albino, and weak/ sickly looking.

He has already gathered it's unrealistic to think no one would want to just have sex with him. He's a living human being what holes to have sex in ,no matter how you look at it. Tumer sees relationships in a matter of roles ,and being the way he is his role is too questioned on either side. He just marks himself off as "an ugly weak freak" ,and goes on about his business - so to speak. He's told people that try to talk to him about it that he doesn't even touch himself (masturbate) ,for all his hatred. As much as professionals think that's a subject that needs to be farther explored Tumer's father disapproves of any attention on the subject. He doesn't know the deep dark thoughts in his son's mind ,and he'd rather keep it that way. This drives Tumer and his father farther apart ,and when rumors start to spread about his father attempting to kill him when he first started developing oddly he automatically accepts them as true. His father is a cold hearted person to being with ,so there's no reason for him to detore the notion. His father doesn't know this, and (or more so BECAUSE) his youngest son (Tumer's lil brother) develops a habit of explosive, violent behavior where ever he hears the whispers. It's already estd they don't speak on the subject in the house, but as things start to develop and stir what's apparent becomes harder to avoid. The thing is the rumors are true : He not only tried to dismember his child ,but he also put Tumer on all sorts of experimental pills to see of the development "problem" could be corrected. The person at the end of the penis part steps in to make things worse later. He's always harassed Tumer ,and he's been waiting for the subject of sexuality coming into play. He doesn't know off the bat about Tumer's vagina ,but he finds out and all hell breaks loose for the "boy".

How it got out is a reason I haven't thought of yet.

The small penis brings alot of strictly present day sexual abuse drama ,and the vagina brings more family drama.

Both still have a good amount of drama ,but the vagina will get more of a "turning point" emotional theme when the time comes where he accepts it.

Either way ,all he wants is love and he doesn't even know it.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Anti-gay REPORTED! *job*

I reported the guy for what he said. I tried to let it go and for a moment i thought i could've ,but when i went to work and saw him i got a headache sick to my stomach. Thankfully a supervisor asked me how things were going ,and I went ahead and told him I wasn't feeling good and why. I couldn't TELL him because the anti-gay was nearby so I wrote it for him. My side was instantly taken which was the exact opposite of what I thought would happen. I tried to swallow the whole thing down because I thought I would get looked down on, but another person said I did the right thing by reporting the offender. They offered to make him apologize ,but I said he can keep it because I know it wouldn't be meaningful. I may be slow at times ,but I'm not that stupid. Not saying the person thought that. It's just that's how THEY have things handled when they know agree it's wrong. They did tell the offender what was going on ,and he was quite silent for the day. I think the super talked to him ,but things really start happening Tuesday what he did was very serious. All the factors that go into it.

What if the person he told i was gay hated gay people and attacked me?
What if they got paranoid that i would try to do something to them and quit?
What if i have gotten so embarrassed i killed myself?
What if i got so paranoid something would happen to me i quit?

Not only that ,but i would tell people what happened ,and why i left. Things like that spread. I'm not gonna say no one would work for them ,because far from the truth. What i don't think is far from the trust is the place would get filled with other hateful people and it would become a horrid place to work. They would think of it as a haven for hate, and that's what it would become.

What if i got replaces with someone sexist against men? He would easily get reported for something very inappropriate ,and not only fired but probably thrown in jail.

I'm gonna bring all that up in the meeting I'm most likely gonna have to be in about this. I'll update if anything happens ,of course.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Oh, the GAY bashing goodness. *JOB*

I got gay bashed at work yesterday by some idiot. Supporting gay rights doesn't make you gay. I'M NOT GAY!

Anyway ,he asked me "What does 'partners' mean?" and I asked how he meant that scene the work can be reffed to alot of things. One of my examples was in legal matters gays have to reffer to their lovers as "domestic partners" and started the flip out! First he said being gay was illegal ,then yelled out to another anti-gay that i said something about gays in law matters. I said "Being gay ISN'T illegal" ,and he said it was to him ,and so did his anti-gay friend (who has used the word 'faggot' by the way. I was right there ,so I'm not mistaken). Later there was more pestering with them swearing i was hitting on everyone i was talking to or looking at INCLUDING HIM. At the end of the night he told the new person I'm gay ,tiring to offend me - no doubt.

I don't wanna go back to the job ,now that i'm basically gonna be the enemy but i don't think I have anyone on my side about this. I'm really pissed off ,but I'll give it another chance. If he does it again I'll report him for either verbal abuse or sexual harassment or BOTH IF POSSIBLE!

I'm hurt because the same thing happened to me in school ,but more action can be taking against someone when they're parents aren't involved. How about Sensitivity Training with no pay? Suspension would just be giving him days off ,and he wouldn't learn anything from it. No, maybe that's not right. He might learn not to fuck with someone just because they're a temp. I still have my rights. In the matter of rights we have freedom of speech ,i know ,but when when someone Else's rights infringing upon YOU'RE right you have the RIGHT to speak out about it. You can say anything you want ,just not to EVERYONE you want.

I still want to run away from this ,but if i do nothing will come out of it. He will think he has dominate word, and all gays and people that support gay rights are cowardous fucks. For my own sake ,i know not everyone agrees with me nor is everyone mature about it ,and i can't run just because of that.

If it bothers me enough today ,I'll go ahead and report him for saying that stuff. I'll be sure to tell them everything ,as i will have a list, and even suggest the punishment. I'm think I'm gonna be as much of a sadistic fuck about this as possible. The best part is I have witnesses ,and cameras to PROVE i have witnesses ,so they can't weasel out of it easily.

Time will tell on this issue ,but it won't take much. I never said I was intolerant. I'm very against haters!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

The JOB updated

Now i've been at my job for about a week and here's what i got.

After 2 days i had to take off becuz my wrist was KILLING ME. Mom got mad becuz my SISTER told her that i quit ,when she shouldn't have ANYTHING and let me explain to mom what happened. I don't think i'm gonna have the problem of her babbling anymore now that she's giving bad info already. I wasn't gonna quit that fast, but i wasn't going to go to work not being able to work.

I want to quit now ,tho ,but I'm not going to without a job to replace it with. No my mom and sister down have to come MILES to getting me and bring me. I'm also interested in LEAVING THE WAREHOUSES! Everyone here wants you to have some sort of exp before you work ,but how can you get exp if no one will hire you?! I think training is extra payment to the manager or something ,and if they don't get paid for it they won't do it.

I don't want to leave temp services ,tho, because they pay every week and that's not something alot of jobs do. I like getting paid every week. IT'S GREAT MOTIVATION, and very handy for someone going/ planning to go to school.

I do hope to be able to quit when i get my GED. Tho i don't like dealing with people that much i'd rather work in a store over the summer becuz it gets hot as fuck here. One of the people I work with said sometimes it gets so hot in there you can't breathe ,and that's very serious to me. I have problems breathing as it is. This job is already fucking up my wrist ,so I'm not letting my lungs take a fall. For now all i can do is take the day off when te temp gets high ,but days off aren't bad.

What makes all this worth bearing is the people I work with. They're very entertaining ,and usually friendly even tho there's alil drama going on right now. They're friendly and helpful to weak lil me. Of course i get teased like everyone else, and it's good to not be left out. It would be better if we could listen to music or something ,but hopefully my next job will be something that allows that.

In the meantime I have start getting my lunch ready now.

ILU GUIES!

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Meet the Spy

Thank you http://www.furaffinity.net/user/milku !!

I DID scream like i was on fire ,btw!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJ4ZYFxoq2s

Sunday, May 10, 2009

I'm working NOA! : LOLZ inside!

I got a short orry on the job ,and what not and he's a pretty cooly guy. The only thing was "There are cameras! Big brother's watching so BEHAVE!" thing. I'm not surprised there are cameras ,because certain computer parts are worth a good lil bit of money (but not much) but they way he and others talked about it was like "o.O", especially about cell phones. We're not suppose to have them in the building ,but we do anyway.so they have to be off , or silent. The guy that orr'ied me didn't say anything about that. I guy came over to me like "Big brother doesn't like cell phones. You've been warned." ,and later on break the girl that was training me was like "OH NOEZ! Don't look at my phone!" when we where going back in ,and when i took it out after we were done working the girl was like "Don't let Big Brother see it!" All day was "Wtf's going on around here with the cell phones?" but i lol'd, too.

The stuff is hard at first ,but when you know the parts ,and how to take them off it's easy. It's harder from me because I don't have alot of arm strength. Others can just ripped the stuff off ,and I have to wack on it with a hammer and crow bar. It's the computers that give me that kind of hell. The cable boxes aren't at bad to take apart ,but i was told sometimes they have roaches in them... dead and alive. I can do dead roaches ,but live ones - they can get a show when that happens ,cuz there's a good chance I'm gonna freak all the way out. It's not the roaches, it's the surprise of them.

I got some characters to work with ,but that doesn't upset me at all. They talk ,laugh ,and play around but work still gets done ,and that's what matters. I like the friendly work environment ,and it's not taking me long to warm up to everyone. They agree I'm doing a good job ,and I'm fast (the same thing they said at Pratt). I like the praise ,and all so the next line might sound alil ungrateful: I don't do a good job for the praise; I do it because that's what i think needs to be done. I do a good job ,because I hate it when people go on jobs and do poorly. Especially in the service industry. If you don't want to work the job DON'T APPLY FOR IT! PLAIN AND SIMPLE!

I like this job ,but I'm gonna try to move on when I get my GED. I want to go into inventory ,janitor/ maid,and maybe some other stuff later on. I'm thinking about trade school or something like that ,but I donno what I wanna do. Alot of recent family has been givers to the community. My mom's a social worker. Alot of my people are in the military ,now including my sister. My God mom was a traveling nanny, and my god sister and grandmother (mom's side) were teachers. I come from alot of giving people and I like to give too ,but is that a career i wanna take up? I don't want to join the armed forces at all! I don't want to be a teacher for various reasons other then the job ,itself. I've thought on and off thought the years about being a social worker ,and I think i wanna work with teens ,especially gay and bi teens. It's a raising issue that has turned out to need more help, more so with the mental/ physically chall'd ones. It's just I FUCKIN HATE PAPER WORK! I'll think of something ,tho. In the meantime I'm content until I get my GED.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

I'm going back to work ,folks

I has another job! Well, i don't have it yet ,but I'll be working this week. I just hope I can last more then a day this time. It's gonna be through a different temp service. I'm going there tomorrow morning to fill out an app ,then i get the job over the "Hook up" from someone my mom works with.

I'm gonna stay with the temp service on this ,because i know it's another dusty dirty job. I'm gonna get my GED soon ,and when i do i'm gonna tell them to find something else for me. This job is gonna be sorting through computer parts ,instead of trash like last time. It's still gonna be a dusty and dirty job ,and I just can't do that for the rest of my life!

I would be counting/ sorting pills right now if it weren't for GREAT STUPIDITY! The pill people want a Driver's ID ,and I'm not a driver. WTF?! What's wrong with a normal State ID?! On the other hand ,if they're that illogical and bullshity i don't WANT to work for them.

If my first day(s) is interesting... I'll make a comic about it.

I just have the idea i'm not gonna like it becuz it's dusty and dirty work ,but it might actually be better. I'm glad it's not trash.

One check will get me some new headphones ,so if i don't last more then that i'll have met a different goal.