Reflection of 2010 THE LIFE

I've made alot of noted changes in my life this year!

THESE ARE  NOT IN THE ORDER IN WHICH THEY HAPPENED (for the most part)!

I quit working in warehouses!
I started going to church!
Met awesome people, and made awesome friends!
I found out I have pet allergies.
I got a new job I love ( just need more money)!
I've become an activist on gay rights! MY BIGGEST CHANGE!
I joined SoFurry, InkBunny, ArtPiles, and Furocity.
I've stop posting art on FurAffinity.
I started on different muses!
I did more fan art!
I joined the popular SNS Facebook.
I joined the new blog/ sns Tumblr
I've been on local TV.
I've met alot of talented people at my cafe job!
I've gotten into a lot of new music. Before the cafe I was into country, and bluegrass, but now I am!

If next year can be more exciting than this I'm gonna need some Bayer!

For the ART reflection

My school bulling

I got the most bulling about my sexual ori in school. I complained to staff, and nothing was done in my defense. Maybe I didn't complain enough or to the right people, when I think about it. I was afraid of drawing attention to myself, because my school records were so bad as far as grades and attendance. I don't see that as an excuse for being ignoredwhen I did complain and report things, however. AND I was reporting them to the person in charge on security, but was secure? No.

I was bullied, and treated like a second class human being. It was like I had some kind of disease. People talked about me, stole my things, and either left when I came in or ran me away. A lot of verbal harassment and rumors. I was threatened, but I kept sharp objects handy and fastly wipe them out when approached.

I said all that to say my WORSE experience came from public school in the south. I noticed the homophobic activity when I was young, but didn't know what it was.

Long story short: My music class was singing Yankee Doodle Dandy. The teacher stopped the singing due to some students sounding different than others. When she inquired on the problem most of the female student were changing the gender lyrics on the "sweetheart" part. They even give a hard time about saying the words, and they wanted back and forth for 5 mins or so. The boys and a few girls were like "We can't just get other with, huh? Ya'll have to raise hell over some stupid shit?"

Everyone that didn't give the teacher a hard time about got an A. Some of the people that did, but sang anyway when the teacher said they weren't going to change it got a varying grade. Those that refuse to sing the line all together got an F.

FckH8 with Kelly - outtakes

Rep. Barney Frank On The "Radical Homosexual Agenda"

AlertPay is the DEVIL!

C/P from my FA entry. This is my take on furaffinity's art bans because of AP.

http://www.sofurry.com/page/201550

And now for my 2 cents.

AlertPay has stripped off the freedoms that we loved to have about this site, and it will do it to others if no action is taken.

I feel like we've all been thrown under the bus. I don't think the mods of this site explained the situation clearly enough. Mostly because with explanation they'd have to admit that they're allowing people to demonize artists for what they do with their own expression for cooperate gain. I've been here long enough to FA pull along thing site on donations and ads from users for long periods of time.

I can't hate too hard. You do what you have to do to keep the site going AND make profit off it. Now let's see how far FA's willing to go before it breaks. I'm seeing this to turn into another "SheezyArt" dilemma.

For those of you that don't get that ref, back in the day Sheezyart allowed porn, and was a very popular adult art site, at that. 2 years after it started they banned and removed all adult art. They started advertising with Google, and Google has VERY strict porn policies. I'm expecting a good crash and burn from FA, however. I don't see them getting through this, because of the mod's openly cowardice behavior. I see them putting up with it for a few more months (maybe giving them too much credit on that), than FA disappears altogether. No more site, no more lj, twitter. Nothing.

I'm not usually this harsh without being ready to eat my words, but I think I safe on most of this. Even if they don't close the site the easiest thing to do would be the make the site clear art only. That would kill the arguing, for sure. Go ahead and tell people they aren't welcome anymore and the offended parties just leave. Not without the mandatory journal entry criticizing the mod's new turn for the site, but still the result comes of it.

DON'T ASK DON'T TELL FINALLY REPEALED!

"Today is a sad day," said Sen. Jon McCain

http://www.taylormarsh.com/2010/12/18/dont-ask-dont-tell-heroes-are-the-soliders/


Let we not forget, DADT wasn't started out of hate. Bill Clinton made DADT to protect people's privacy, and they weren't to be asked about sexuality at all. In 07 or 08 officials started using it as a barring to gays/ bi to join to armed forces. Let's just remember that's not how it started.

Bill did what he had to do to keep the peace among people at the time when the issues back then were different from the ones we have now. Our civil issues call for DADT to repealed for human rights and the stronger fight against anti-gay and homophobia.

Let's all pat ourselves on the back! Except you, Jon. You have no idea how much trouble you're in, now. You should know better than to say things aloud. You're too old to think straight (lol pun).

Spirited Away - The return

Steamboy OST: John Powell - Full Force

Best OST classical FUCKING EVER!

SO WHAT?!

I was really hard on myself that last entry.

I feel kinda bad for liking a guy, in general, but so what? He's nice to me and all.

I don't think we'll ever meet, so much as I'd like to meet him and hang out. I know I have to get real, and end up settling down with a nice girl that i can be with on a regular bases, for a relationship. I have can only hope she's as nice and funny as him.

Oh, btw, I'm stupid. AFFECTION MIX!

I fell into "like" with someone over the net. We were talking for some time before I started to like him. I wouldn't fall for a jerk. It's just he wants to join the military. I feel stupid enough for liking someone I only know online, and I have this half-asses rebel thing, other things I don't like about the military. Surprisingly enough, it doesn't have anything to do with the killing. I'm not one of those people that believe we shouldn't have armed forces. I'm one of those people that believe if a person is willing to give up there life for their country the shouldn't be barred for sexual ori, education level (over age 21), and I also think we should go back to using prisoners as soldiers.

Going for someone over the net makes me feel like my face-to-face interaction is inferior. It's a "I feel for someone online because I have no way of feeling for someone irl" kind of feeling. I also feel like some of this is coming from the fact that I'm affection deprived, and there's little I can do about it.

I'd rather have fucked up dreams and dreams where I die than to have to go through this crap. It makes me feel really stupid to even have to think about this. I wish there was a way to get rid of it. I just want it all to go away!

A dream where I die. Haven't had one in a while.

I'm sitting on a bike, in a white place. It looks like it snowed, but there's not snow on the and I don't remember it feeling cold, or wearing anything making it look like cold weather. The streets are mostly empty, except for a few cars, one of them being a cop car. The cars are old fashion, but new.

I hear a noise coming from what looks like a movie place half a block away across the street from where I am. A police officer suddenly rushes out, say something to the people inside, then puts the gun at me with both hands, like I'm a threat. I think "He won't shot me. I haven't done anything" and I start to leave, then shoots me in the chest. I don't feel the pain, but I go down (side ways, like in real life. Not back, like in the movies). The officer and and some people rush over to me, seeming to check if I'm ok. I think "I'm too scared to die! I don't know what happens next!" and I die, then I wake up in the same position I died in the dream.