Still Belly Dancing, even though it might kill me!

I still have a lot of techs to learn, but I'm now taking with I already know and dancing to songs! It's important to get timing down. Even if you get a move wrong you have to keep time! I'm dancing to all speed of songs, even though I know I should stick to slow. I'll hurt something if I push it, but I can help it that this is so fun! It's dancing, after all!

My mind goes to the hip stuff first, but I'm going to try to work in the walking moves aside from the Al shimmy. I'm going to try to work in the camel walk move. Maybe the pelvic walk, too, but I don't like it as much with all that harsh tucking. For walking slower songs are best. Chest and leg stuff is good for intermediate speed, and hip stuff is for all speed, but you can go crazy of the fast songs.

I'm already thinking about showcase my talent in spring or Summer, if I'm ready by then... or if I'm not too shy to do it in person, in front of people.

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I took a break from tarot cards today. I'm getting headaches from staring at the screen, now.

Aleenah - Egyptian Bellydance

Tribal Fusion Belly Dance - Eliran Edri Amar at Tribal Fest Budapest 2010

Tarot reading, and Belly Dancing progress of 9/23/12

The Tarot App I have on GC wants to kill me. I'm a reader for free, and people love free so I get a lot of requests. I can honestly say I'm overwhelmed, and flatter. It's sad I have to reject some of them, but it's just too much at once, and they're removed around 24 hours. I just take a few at a time, so not to burn myself out. It is fun to read cards, but it's work, too. I see why people can charge some much for it. When I get a deck in real life, I doubt I'll ever be as busy as what's going on online - free or not.

I'm still having fun learning how to do all these dances with my belly! Really, it's more my knees, hips, feet, and chest, but it does effect my belly greatly!

My favorite moves:
Basic Egyptian! Omi! The Wheel! L arms and hip drops, with turn!

The moves I'm surprisingly good at:
Choo Choo Shimmy! The chest moves I've seen, so far.

The moves I'm bad with:
Piston hips, and hip drop and kick.

What I don't even try:
Barrell "turn". It's more like a spin. I have still have problems with my left and right, so that's effecting it.

I'm trying about getting into pole dancing, again. I have some factors against me: I can't get a pole in the place I live in now. I'm afraid of falling, and I get dizzy easily. I'll have to yet until I can pay to go to the studios that we have here (if they're still open), and hope they (still) do pole dancing. Hopefully, the next place I move to will have the space needed to have my own pole at home.

IN THE MEAN TIME, BACK TO THE SUBJECT OF BELLY DANCING, I still want to wait until I have a good cam and a basic belly dancing outfit to record and post on the net.... but I might not wait and do with what I have because I'm not pro anyway!

Tarot reading, and belly dancing progress 9/22/12

I started a tarot journal for when I read the cards for myself. There's a lot to keep up with, so the suggestion of having a journal for this is a very good suggestion! I signed up to be a card reader on Google Chrome's Tarot Card app, and I've already got 2 readings under my belt! I'm very proud of myself, and I know I still have a lot to learn and I look forward to it!

I'm not even a week into belly dancing. and I already have a song I want to put together a routine to and show off! Now all I need is a cam, and a belly dancing outfit! The song I have in mind is Honeybee by Steam Powered Giraffe, but I might not do it. I don't want to be mistaken as someone in the band fandom. I'm newly considering Joker's "Untitled Rsn", but it requires fast movements and sharp jerks... WHICH WILL MAKE IT FUN! I have other songs in mind to record myself doing my normal spazzfire dance to! I don't need an outfit for that! With the belly dancing songs I'm considering more slow beats. I might even do Zapp and Roger's "Computer Love", with that being said.

As far as a cam goes, I'm going to see what I can do with my phone. The videos that record to the phone are 3GPP, and it's not easy to convert. However, when sent direct to the net, or a video site it's automatically reformatted. I'll see what I can do about a proper webcam, and video camera in the future.

My Tarot and Palm reading progress #1

With the cards, I’m doing web sites and digital apps until I get a card deck. Gotta work with what I have, and I don’t feel it’s any less meaningful. I still have to pick and interpret them. I think I’m doing much better with that than palm reading. I have to learn all these lines before I learn what they mean. Reading the tarot is more fun, but I will continue to do both. I’m just doing them on myself as I’ve just started studying these seriously. I’m doing them only on myself right now, but I’m going to go public with cards long before palms.

I started BELLY DANCING today!

It burns! It burns so much, but I feel good. I will continue to do it. For me it's one of those things that looks amazing! It doesn't feel as good while I'm learning it, but when I've got it down and I start preforming I'll feel great about it. It’s hard, in learning how to control and isolate muscles and movements at once. It’s easy it basic movement, for the most part. If I didn't care about being tight, and just doing the moves it would be sluggish, but it wouldn't be as hard. It being sluggish would defeat all the purposes of it.

I'll record myself dancing and post on the net when I'm ready!

Dreads, and other things! MEGA LIFE UPDATE!

It's finally Fall weather, so I have a lot to do! I've decided to go for the dreads, and I'll be setting them by Winter! If I'm use to them by Summer I'll be less likely to shave my head, despite how hot it will get. I'll gladly still shave if it's too hot to handle. I'm going to focus on learning sign language, and other languages again! ASL has high priority. Spanish is second, and everything else is after that in no order. I'm letting the internet teach me how to belly dance, palm read, tarot read, and do Reiki! Classes for those are unavailable here, and even if they were available I wouldn't be able to pay for them. At least not now. The owner of the cafe I was working in found a new spot for the business, and if all goes well I'll have that job back! I'm still going to apply for a store I want to work in, because they have a lot of stuff I want with a %50 employee discount!

What I will be doing with some of these learned skills is displaying them on the net, just to have a reason to retain and use them. I'll be post my activities on Vimeo, Dailymotion, and MAYBE Tumblr, and some other sites. I'm not considering posting my face and activities on Youtube that much, due to the immature community.

Minor things:

I'm mediating now. Not doing as much yoga, anymore.

I got into a band, but I'm not going to be in the fandom because porn is "frowned upon". I'm too much of a pervert for that shit. I can sit a fandom out, after all I've been in. It was going to be my first self-influenced band fandom, tho. And, it's a Steampunk themed band. I'm just a lil dumped about that.

I want to have a Pagan Halloween. No costumes or any of that. I might have my own ritual, if I can't attend someone else's.

I've dropped harmful people from my friend circle. That kind of thing messes up my energy. I use to be "Anyone who's willing to hang out with me is cool!". Now I'm "Just because they're willing to hang out with me doesn't mean I should hang out with them."

I've come to accept my drawing style, and what-not. No more worrying about that.

Future things:

Learn how to roller skate.

Learn how to swim (now at lower priority).

Learn how to use (a) weapon(s).

That's all for now!

Art about Dad and Me!?

I've come to the point where I want to get the hatred of my father off my chest, out of my mind, and expelled from my soul. The reasons why I hate him are as follows: He threatened to beat me for being bisexual. The abuses his current wife, and other kids (verbally, and mental. I don't know about bodily). He abandoned me (technically, I see it that way). He (tired his best) to ban me from drawing, and watching anime (which I did, and watched anyway).He will openly manipulate and humiliate with more wickedness, and call himself a "pastor" because he's suppose to be some sort of "pastor" in the military. Gaining power is important to him so he'll have more to control others with. He's a lair, a user, and an abuser. All good reasons to hate him, but I'm just tired of it. I'm feed up with putting my spiritual energy into hating someone that will not feel the effects of my hate. I want to exact revenge, but I know I won't be able to. It only frustrates me that I can't cause him any pain, for all the anger and hate he put into me. It can just come up in my mind, and I will suddenly be outraged and rate to myself, about any future scenario we could meet up in where I take the chance to humiliate and hurt him. I'll even dream about it, which can have mixed results. Where as I want to hurt him in face to face interaction, I know it would be better for me if I never saw him (alive) again.

I can't afford a professional to talk to so I got the idea maybe expressing these feeling through art will help move them out of my body. I'm thinking of it as "the energy I release into this work will move the energy out of me". The basic think to do would be to make art pieces, but I'm considering a comic. I'm feeling like a fantasy comic, based off real events (not only of him, but it might help with my bullying, too) but fantasy will make it more interesting for others to view. There are several ways to interpret these feelings. I wonder what I'll do.

My 24th birthday

Today the weather was not only clear, but lovely! I went shopping, hung out (I do all the time), and I had a successful online chatroom meeting! It was an open chat, so it would have been sad if that failed! I'm very happy a lot of people wished me happy birthday! I got some gifts is year, and as happy as I am about that (naturely) that's not important. I'm glad I was safe and sounds, nothing bad happened, and people wished me happy birthday!

I've been reflating on my life a lot in the past few days or weeks, and I think it's something I'll be doing for a while. I'm not one to let where I am, and where I "should be" get me down too long. I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, and I'm content with that!

Have a good life, everyone!