I don't believe in the christian bible, because it sucks!

There are alot of reasons why I stopped believing in Christianity, that long out-date the biblical based homophobia I was bum bared with after coming out as bi. Here are all my reasons, all together.

• When I was a child, in Sunday school, I asked the teacher “If this took place in Africa why are the people white?”

She answered “We don’t know what people looked like back then.” I asked “Well, why don’t get a painting of some black people, then?” She didn’t answer, and the conversation ended there.
That was the point in which I started talking to myself. As long as I was going to my godmother’s house on the weekend, I would have to go to church. Talking to myself tuned them out until it was over.
Today, it’s to my understanding that the story takes place in there because it’s about Mary and Joey ESCAPING from their original land to Africa. But, the depictions continue to be white people, as the story continues to take place in Africa. I know at some point Jesus goes back to his parents’ homeland or something.

• Too many plot holes, and people don’t know what they’re talking about!

Good example, what I just said above, and much more. Either it’s books and chapters that have been taken out, or changed, or it’s just the fact that people don’t tell you certain things. I just found out that these people escaped to Africa, and I was raised by Baptist from childhood. The teacher could’ve said that! Based on what I’ve accumulated on how the general southern baptist perceives things she probably didn’t know, herself.
From what I read of the bible, it’s just a bunch random stories, that only come together in connection when Jesus appears. That means the Old Test is better titled “The random misadventures of God’s creations!” That means it either all happened or none of it happened! This the mean reason people are so “pick and chose” about how they follow.

• The bad side of “pick and chose”.

Even tho bible says to love each other people will ignore that, and go on the parts of “We’ll hate who God hated, and those that hated and abandoned Jesus.”
Even tho black people didn’t have much part in Jesus’ story we have those that express bible based racism. I guess they “abandoned” him in a way. The Jews defiantly abandoned Jesus. This is were Jew based bible hate comes from. But, you can’t hate Jews and believe in Jesus, because even tho the other Jews left him alone he was still one.
In modern translation the bible does say, in the Old and New Test, that homosexuality is wrong. People will relate that to bisexuality, too. I don’t know what the bible says about transexuality, however. The a modern christain it’s all the same, so if they pick it to be wrong it’s all wrong.
The are alot of real life examples of men using the bible is bash women, but “put them in their place” using the power of the “holy spirit”. Women really suck in the bible. They mostly look like unreasonable, selfish whores.
In the bible God says he’s jealous and wants people to burn beliefs in other types of religions and Gods. That’s were people that hate all other religions come from.
Despite the fact that the bible says we should all love each other, REPEATEDLY.
The bible is an excuse we use on why and why not to do things. If I had a dollar for every time I’ve heard “There’s a time and place for all things” as a bible quote I’d be richer than Oprah. I would have so much money everyone else in the entire world would be poor! Add in other popular bible quotes an individual will use as to why/ not do something… I would have so much money I’d HAVE to give it all away so everyone else that functions mostly on a money system would be able to survive. I’ve heard these quotes among people are more used for times to be violent, than times to be peaceful. Also, times to get get what they want, over use of times to be humble and thankful for what they already have.
Just people being people and using what they have and know what get what they want. And alot of them have the nerve to be surprised when others don’t believe or respect them. I know some of how human nature works. I’m just saying “Just be honest. There’s no point in trying to hide your true intentions with this pretentious bullshit.”

• Moses and Sodom and Gomorrah, in logic.

I just don’t believe that. 2 of EVERY ANIMAL IN THE WORLD? That includes animals that don’t live in that region of the world. How could they properly sex all the animals to make sure it was a male and female of it’s species, and what defiant did they have that all the animals would reproduce?
I vaguely remember is about the angels that visited Sodom and Gomorrah. The father offered his daughters to be raped in exchange for the safety of the (male?) angels. According to someone I know, the father was turned down, because the twin towns were (mostly?) men, and they were all gay so they didn’t accept the daughters. I don’t think anyone got raped in this story: The men didn’t want the women, and people can’t touch an angel.
I don’t know or believe that these gay men all wanted to rape the angels. Men are aggressive, but that’s very different from being a rapist. Why would you bother offering your daughters to gay men? I take it the lesbians were else where, because these were male formed angels. Even tho daughters were offered, they were offered to the gay men. People in the bible are also stupid.

• Sexism.

All the women suck. I understand women have been and still are oppressed. All the people that get blessed with power in the bible are men, and the women just fail.

• Story and plot, as a reader.

The bible is just a long boring book of tragic misadventures of random stupid people. You tell me there’s a book with a God, and a demi-god running things, and I’m expecting a decent story. For it to suck so hard, it’s way too long. I understand it’s a collection of stories, but all the stories are bad. A God that kills things, and tests it’s followers by telling them to kill things. A demi-god that leads most to all of his followers to a horrible death. Humans that have no common sense.
Why should I feel for some people being lead by this weak demi-god around the desert on a suicide mission like chickens with their heads cut off? They’re already off to a bad start, as chickens with their heads cut off!

• As a black person…

I was convinced that this story was all about black people, until recently with the “They escaped to Africa (and at some point went back home)”. The Old Test should be black people because of the story of the Pharaoh enslaving Jews, and etc. At first I was under the impression that these were black people, more popularly depicted as white white. That was a moral crime to me, in itself. If they weren’t not black, to start with, I’m cool with it now. However, if they are really black 1. I’ve been robbed as a black person, and 2. Why do black people have to be written into such awful stories that had to become so popular? “This sucks so hard it’s great, so these most be white people, and not have much to be with black people even tho it took place were all the black people are!”

• As an “artist”…

Now days, I understand the paintings and artworks that are popularly reproduced is an artists interpretation of Jesus and the story. What I don’t understand is why that’s the only popular one! Where’s Asian Jesus? What about full white Jesus with blond hair and blue or green eyes? Hispanic Jesus, anyone? I think Jesus would look better with tan skin, long soft wavy hair, and a muscular build at about 5’7 in height.
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I want to make it clear, and i had all these previous reasons, before I was introduced to the homophobic bible hate. It was a “Your story is already fucked, and you think you have room to condemn me? No, fuck you!” for me. At the time, I was with people that were either stupid religious, or not practicing religion at all. The people in little to no practice treated me better so I marked off christainity as unreasonable, and stopped believing. I don’t have any reason to go back to believing it, either. I’m happy being able to believe what I want, and not dealing with what I don’t want.
There are so many other beliefs to choose from. Not all of hem of absurd random stories. Not all of them hold men to every higher position over women. Not all of them condemn non-hetero people. There’s no reason why I should or would go with something that does. Some religions even have stories and characters that KICK ASS. Why go with the weaklings with bad plots? And, why go with the stupid modern fanclub that is much more interested in using this weak word to get their way, instead of doing what’s right with it?
This all from my pov, and my way of thinking. I know this is all bashing, but on the other hand I have seen christainity make good out of people. I just don’t see enough of it. The people doing good with christainty aren’t usually the ones you see making statements on TV about things. It’s the evil, crazy condemning ones. If all things must come to an end I hope the rule of the “Evil Bible” ends soon.

Worked the Election Poll: Here's what I have to say.

From the overall exp I won't be the election poll again anytime soon.

It was long and boring. Hardly no one came in, and most of the time we were sitting there getting hurt just from sitting there in those horribly hard metal chairs. I was hungry, sore, sleepy, irritated, and constipated most of the day.

I'm not going to diss the ladies I was with too much, because they were nice, and they gave me snack money. It's just you can't sit in a room with Christians and tell them that you're not a Christian, and that you believe in tarot cards and gay rights without a reaction. I also put in the idea that I'm not straight some where in there, as I usually have a good skill to do. I can't go into full detail on my argument on gay issues, but my usual ace is "This is the land of the free and the home of the brave. Marriage is a legal issue. If you pay taxes you should have the same rights as other tax payers," and that has yet to fail me on ending an argument. People that don't believe in God or YOUR God get married just like you do. People that don't in God or don't believe in YOUR God still continue to live on this Earth and the Earth continues to spin. I can believe what I want, and continue to live, just like everyone else, so what's so important about this "God" stuff?

I'll admit I'm traumatize from Christianity, and I don't see myself returning to the one of the things that's hurt me the most in my life, and continues to hurt me now (if i can't help it). I've yet to get the "You're going to Hell," in my adult life, but I'm sure it's coming. It almost came today. I told them I don't want to go to Heaven because the fun people aren't there, and they were like "Have you been to Heaven?!". I was like "Have you?" "No, but we're asking you. Have you been?" "No, but I had a dream about it. It's was boring, so I don't wanna go." That ended that part.

Then later we talked about racial issues. I have a better understanding of why older black people don't like white people from some of what I heard today. A lot of, not only here, but most (if not all) of the USA is based on white people stealing other people's stuff. I've known that for most of my life, now. It upsets me, like it would any other none-white person, but I just don't have that withholding anger in my soul about it. I won't until something personal happens to me, or someone close to me. Even then, I still won't think all white people are bad. In my teen years the few friends I had were mostly white; I only had 1 black friend, in fact. I also know I was a lot of white peoples only of just 2nd, or 3rd black friend, too. There's much unfairness, but when it comes to race and sex I choose to handle those issues as they come to me.

The social opposition I came to today isn't what turned me off to poll working. It's just it's boring as shit. I have NEVER been hungry, sore, sleepy, irritated, and constipated all at the same time! And I was like that for HOURS today! This is going on my resume, and I'm done.

Christians love God more than other people.

I went into a christian chat room about my problem. i wasn't expecting to get help, but why not kill some time? When I got there one of the "heads" of the chat was telling someone to read the bible and trust god instead of going to the hospital about her dizziness and not sleeping for 3 days. She said her taste goes away when she takes her meds. The obvious suggestion would be to talk her doctor about it, but no. Come into a christian chat room. You clearly don't want help with your medical problem if that's your lead to the solution on your medical issue.

Anyway,

I told them about my problem, and they suggested I go to God. I was refereed to Jame 4 1 thru 15. I schemed it, and from what I saw it was some people people talking about cheating or something. It was ABOUT jealousy, but it didn't help. Ok, so some people a long time ago, in Africa were jealous and someone said something about God. What the fuck does that have to do with me?

Of cor' my trauma came up, about how I was scarred by "Christians" in the past. Still didn't help me with the issue I'm having now.

I understand they were helping in the way they knew how. It just felt really brain washed to me. It's clear I'm psychologically traumatized, and I will be for the rest of my life. Can i get help for my current problem NOW, tho.

I'll admit something: I want in there KNOWING they weren't going to help. I figured I'd reinforce why I don't like nor trust Christians. I didn't troll the chat, mind you. I asked for their advice, as people, and they went into how I was mentally scarred, how I should trust God and how he loves me. How can I trust God if I can't trust his people? Who follows is a representation of who you are.