Friends but not friends

Someone I met in the shelter that helped me move into my room. I thought we were friends, even after they confessed their "advanced" feelings for me. They didn't stop hanging after that, so I thought it was ok. Even when they still went on to try to advertise going out to dinner together.They were even there to help me move and get settled in by spending my first fews days with me.

But -on my end of the story-, when it finally set in that I wasn't interested in such events my personality suddenly became "too radical" for them. The main event that gave them their "out" on our relationship was my disagreeing with their plans to appease their shelter case manager. The idea was to apply for the program that I'm in, but with no interest in joining. I expressed that I disagreed with them wasting the program's time and taking time and space someone that needed the program and wanted to be in it could be using. After that we talked no more, until I found out they worked at a store. We still didn't "talk",  but I made it clear I was over it.

I was shocked, as that was the first time that's ever happened to me. I'm disgusted, and disappointed with the situation, but not disheartened by humanity. It was explained to me that the person just wanted to feed off my positive energy, but I don't believe such things. I'm just as homosapien as anyone else, and there's nothing of me to feed from. There are times I can't even feed myself. 

When they repeated vented about the same issue with their family members I would tell them "You need to sign up for Aspen Pointe to see a therapist. There's nothing I can do to help with the issues of your family." And, I'm proud on how consistent I was with that. And, still am. That's what I tell everyone that comes to me with in-depth problems. "I'm not the help you need. You need a professional," has become my tagline. I can see how they would think seeking a higher level of relationship with me would get me to open up to those kinds of problems, but I was strictly rejecting it. The kind of relationship also comes with other details that I was rejecting even more. I also wasn't sexually attracted to them, and it's common for sex to be a factor in those types of relationships in our culture. AND, IT WASN'T GOING TO HAPPEN.

I'm not awaiting "marriage". I wait on "the one", and I know that "one" would not drop me because I'm not a cheerleader for all the bad jokes, repeated rants, and self righteous behavior. I quit baby sitting a long time ago, and I have no plans to return to it - nor I will be baby sitting adults (/'s egos).

People, and The Peace of Mind Center saved me!

I was still in very much of a bad mood from what happened earlier with my event planning position. I went to class, because I knew if I had stayed home like I wanted to, I would have just moped about it all day and felt worse.

I went to class, hung out with some friends, and got a lot of math done. I also paid to take my test! I don’t go about things like something was wrong, so my pals unwittingly cheered me up. A student I dislike got kicked out. This isn’t the first this person has been kicked, and we wonder why they let them back in. They clearly don’t want their GED so they should stop being allowing to waste time and space at school. A much more determined, cooperative person could have their sit. That cheered my up some, too, tho.

After class I went to the cafe (oh, I don’t work there, btw), and hung out with someone I hadn’t seen in maybe 2 or 3 years! I was very happy to see them! They’re very helpful, and a good listener… and did I vomit my problem on them. I walked out with them as they were about to leave, and I told them I do palm and tarot reading now. I told them I only do it online, because I don’t have a deck. They told me about THE PEACE OF MIND CENTER, and took me over there!

The clerk in the store was polite and well knowledge on what I asked about, and made very helpful suggestions. It’s a small place -a store set up in a house- and OHFUZZ!!! They have TAROT CARDS! And, not just one or 2 options. They had 6 decks, and the clerk said they’ll have more decks in next month! They’re much more meta than Earthbound! This is a love-at-first-sight thing I’m having! Of course I put in to work there! I hope I get some sort of employment so I can shop there! Check ‘em for yourself!

To round up my day, I want for a short walk while I waited for my bus. I ran into my usually folks and got the “Where have you been? We noticed you were gone.” I have people that like me, and they notice when I’m away. I like that, but it’s not good to hang around the same people all the time. I have been out with other people.

So much went right today! I’m so glad people like me, too!

Skin colors

It's ok to call brown people of Africa descent "black", and pick people "white", but if you call a pink/ yellow-ish person "yellow" it's racist? I don't see how. In some cases calling a brown-ish/ red person "red" is thought of as racist, but I still don't see why or how. Why isn't it bad to call people colors they aren't. They aren't "black", or "white". People are strange.