Dreads, and other things! MEGA LIFE UPDATE!

It's finally Fall weather, so I have a lot to do! I've decided to go for the dreads, and I'll be setting them by Winter! If I'm use to them by Summer I'll be less likely to shave my head, despite how hot it will get. I'll gladly still shave if it's too hot to handle. I'm going to focus on learning sign language, and other languages again! ASL has high priority. Spanish is second, and everything else is after that in no order. I'm letting the internet teach me how to belly dance, palm read, tarot read, and do Reiki! Classes for those are unavailable here, and even if they were available I wouldn't be able to pay for them. At least not now. The owner of the cafe I was working in found a new spot for the business, and if all goes well I'll have that job back! I'm still going to apply for a store I want to work in, because they have a lot of stuff I want with a %50 employee discount!

What I will be doing with some of these learned skills is displaying them on the net, just to have a reason to retain and use them. I'll be post my activities on Vimeo, Dailymotion, and MAYBE Tumblr, and some other sites. I'm not considering posting my face and activities on Youtube that much, due to the immature community.

Minor things:

I'm mediating now. Not doing as much yoga, anymore.

I got into a band, but I'm not going to be in the fandom because porn is "frowned upon". I'm too much of a pervert for that shit. I can sit a fandom out, after all I've been in. It was going to be my first self-influenced band fandom, tho. And, it's a Steampunk themed band. I'm just a lil dumped about that.

I want to have a Pagan Halloween. No costumes or any of that. I might have my own ritual, if I can't attend someone else's.

I've dropped harmful people from my friend circle. That kind of thing messes up my energy. I use to be "Anyone who's willing to hang out with me is cool!". Now I'm "Just because they're willing to hang out with me doesn't mean I should hang out with them."

I've come to accept my drawing style, and what-not. No more worrying about that.

Future things:

Learn how to roller skate.

Learn how to swim (now at lower priority).

Learn how to use (a) weapon(s).

That's all for now!

Art about Dad and Me!?

I've come to the point where I want to get the hatred of my father off my chest, out of my mind, and expelled from my soul. The reasons why I hate him are as follows: He threatened to beat me for being bisexual. The abuses his current wife, and other kids (verbally, and mental. I don't know about bodily). He abandoned me (technically, I see it that way). He (tired his best) to ban me from drawing, and watching anime (which I did, and watched anyway).He will openly manipulate and humiliate with more wickedness, and call himself a "pastor" because he's suppose to be some sort of "pastor" in the military. Gaining power is important to him so he'll have more to control others with. He's a lair, a user, and an abuser. All good reasons to hate him, but I'm just tired of it. I'm feed up with putting my spiritual energy into hating someone that will not feel the effects of my hate. I want to exact revenge, but I know I won't be able to. It only frustrates me that I can't cause him any pain, for all the anger and hate he put into me. It can just come up in my mind, and I will suddenly be outraged and rate to myself, about any future scenario we could meet up in where I take the chance to humiliate and hurt him. I'll even dream about it, which can have mixed results. Where as I want to hurt him in face to face interaction, I know it would be better for me if I never saw him (alive) again.

I can't afford a professional to talk to so I got the idea maybe expressing these feeling through art will help move them out of my body. I'm thinking of it as "the energy I release into this work will move the energy out of me". The basic think to do would be to make art pieces, but I'm considering a comic. I'm feeling like a fantasy comic, based off real events (not only of him, but it might help with my bullying, too) but fantasy will make it more interesting for others to view. There are several ways to interpret these feelings. I wonder what I'll do.

My 24th birthday

Today the weather was not only clear, but lovely! I went shopping, hung out (I do all the time), and I had a successful online chatroom meeting! It was an open chat, so it would have been sad if that failed! I'm very happy a lot of people wished me happy birthday! I got some gifts is year, and as happy as I am about that (naturely) that's not important. I'm glad I was safe and sounds, nothing bad happened, and people wished me happy birthday!

I've been reflating on my life a lot in the past few days or weeks, and I think it's something I'll be doing for a while. I'm not one to let where I am, and where I "should be" get me down too long. I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, and I'm content with that!

Have a good life, everyone!

Voice Acting Tutorial!

Hey! Male Skullgirls cosplayers!

Why am I not seeing banana slings, and short-shorts?! Why are male cosplayers not as slutty as the girls?! Need some help designing a slutty outfit, or something? Slut it up, guys! Slut it up!

I had a thought about Peacock (what else is new)

I remember what I said about her future situation after her story mode. All that "she's homeless and unfit for general society" stuff. After reading someone else say something to my idea, and reviewing her story mode, she does say that she needs to sleep, and she missing her TV shows. I didn't ignore it, but re-reading repeated finally made me think: Dr. Avian is dead, but if there's anything left of Lab 8 and the other doctors are still alive then Lab 8 doesn't have to be over. Peacock said "they did a number on the lab", but she didn't the lab was COMPLETELY destroyed. Knowing my slang terms, that means the lab was in bad, but not unfixable shape. If it was she might have said something along the lines of "OH NO! The lab's been totaled!" and I assume her gang would have panicked - given it's their home, too. Anything that isn't answered in being spelled completely out for everyone is up in the air. I'm just now being able to point out that Peacock does hint the Lab is salvageable.




Also, in all seriousness - I can't see Peacock (fully in character) having sex, and I mean that with anyone. Slavery is known to involve rape, and at the age in which it happened she probably mental scared in that area (among others) for life. In any case, it depends on how she reacted to the trauma. That's my opinion on that subject.

What's with women, and running from relationship problems?

In the 90's I heard more "black" women were going to "white" men because "black" men were fucking up. All the "black" men were just fucking up so hard, they ran the women of their own fellow African descent off.




Since about 2009 I've been hearing there are more lesbians, because men are fucking up. All men, in general, have fucked up so hard women just refuse to deal with them now.



What will happen about 10 years from now women come to find that women fuck up too?