Showing posts with label life update. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life update. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Now I know that I'm actually sexist.

What brought me to this:

In June, I started volunteering at a center. One of the other volunteers contacted me from the staff list with person intent. They didn't have my knowledge and certainly not my permission in doing so. They started off with coming to live with them, an hour away from where I currently am. After I turned that down, they offered for my to attend a fest with them in a different town an hour away. The kept inviting me to stuff, and I was very standoffish about it. I saw the kindness in their actions, but someone suddenly contacting me and inviting to to places an hour away from where I live to place where I don't know anyone is strange.

Recently, has person has admitted they became frustrated with my coy behavior so I forced myself to finally tell them the truth. Like I said, I saw the kindness, but it was too much too soon, and it spookied me. Unfortunately, they didn't want to accept this and kicked me out of their life as much as they could without me actually being in it, in the first place.

How this links to sexism:

This person has a vagina. Even though I'm well aware that people with a vagina are just as evil as people with a penis, I still treated that person much kinder than I would have if it had been someone with a penis. If they had a penis, I would have bluntly cut them off without thinking about it. Something along the lines of: "No one has permission to contact me without relation to the center. That's a very creepy and disrespectful thing to do. Cease and desist." And, I still would have told our supervisor after handling it myself.

But no. I was dealing with a vagina wielder, so I kept it going, hoping they would get the hint that I didn't want to be close to them, but I was ok with talking to them casually. By that I mean online, as we live an hour apart. They took all of this into their own hands - I didn't ask for any of this. They had no respect for me in the action of contacting me from the staff list without my permission. They also don't under that what they did was wrong. I'm not assuming that - they actually said they did nothing wrong when I confronted them about how I felt. I would have forwarded the emails to our supervisor at that point - it if were someone with a penis.

Resolve:

I know the universe was telling me this, for it put someone from the past in my line of vision. A person with a penis for whom I was very blunt and direct with, before. They exited my life with their own disgrace and I have no interest in letting them back in. That is how I should also treat this person.
I am thankful that the universe pointed out my sexist ways. Regardless of gentials, body stature and all - all people are hurt hurtful beings. I will be blunt and direct with all of them equally.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

I'm now apart of the couch surfing community!

When one door closes another one surely opens! I've recently been (emotionally) kicked out of a "community", and shortly after I met someone from couchsurfing.org and I'm apart of a bigger and better community!

I met a Turkish person who is very well traveled, as they've been a traveler and a couch surfing for only a little time, but has been a lot of places. Naturally, I was on the "You know so much stuff! Tell me your stuff! I want to know all the things!" We went to a cafe, a large park, the Citizens Project office, and to their college's campus - for they have a meeting there, after our meetup.

It was so much fun. I was very nervous about meeting someone new, but we're hanging out again soon, so I guess I'm ok. I'm very happy as I not feel like an office part of the CS.org community, and I'm very honored to be apart of such a large, diverise, well-trusted collodge of people!

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Colorado!

I've been in Colorado a month, and it already looks like I'll have to go back to Louisiana. I'll be going back for family issues, but I won't stay long. I know I don't have a life in LA, so I'll come back out when I'm ready. In the meantime, I'll be enjoying my summer in Colorado! I'll be at pride events, and all that good stuff!

I was homeless for a little while, and now I'm staying with some awesome people! I've decided to talk to my biological family, again. Things just have to go from here.

Friday, January 4, 2013

Happy New Year, 2013! Reiki and Palm Reading now?!


So, it turns out I had the basic palm reading stuff I was looking for since I started looking for it. It pays to go through the saved bookmarks, doesn't it? It's much more of whole hand reading, than just palms - as I'm willing to learn all of it! I'm also going to become serious about taking up Reiki this year, but maybe more later, than sooner in the future. I'm also going to look into what rune reading is! I'm going to get back into refreshing my sign language, as I went so far as to put I know it on my resume! It's not that I don't know it, as much as I don't have anyone to sign to on the reg to keep it on my mind. Also, Spanish and Japanese. I'm going to get back into trying to do something with those.

I still haven't started my dreads, due to money issues. I'll have a big long fro if I don't do something it very soon! My hair is well enough past acceptable length to start them. I don't want my hair to random lock together, because I want my dreads an organized certain size. I'm still belly dancing, just not everyday. I think something seasonal is going on with me, right now. Also, I still feel like I'll be more into it when I get some belly dancing stuff. I'm going to look into Wiccan/ Pagan, UU, Buddhist items, as well.

I don't start off my New Year('s Day) with partying, and drinking (like I wanted), so I watched some anime! Neon Genesis Evangelion  to be exact. If I can't party and drink I may as well do heavy reflection on life. I didn't watch EoE, because I don't care for it. I finally read vol 2 of Megaman ZX, re-read NGE: AC (and it sucked just as much as it did the first time I read it - if not more, in retrospect , and I will soon re-start .Hack. I don't know why I'm still putting it off. Maybe there's only so much reflection I can take at once. I stay in celebrating the new year until the Chinese New Year celebration is over, so I have a lot of time to do everything that will make me happy, and bring in the new year like I want!

I want to take my GED test this month, but money issues might be getting in the way of that. Speaking of money, I'm still looking for work, but I know to enjoy my all this free time I have. I'm going to put some of it into a comic, that I'm looking to launch this month! If not this month, in the near future. The details on all that are in my LJ art blog.

That's it for now.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Dec Update! "Figure 8's... Dreadlocked?! Back to Tarot. March to Dallas!"


8's are fun, but for some reason I do them better starting from the back or "opposite" direction. It's not as bad on my ankles, which are turning out to tricky with me. Nothing some muscle rub isn't easing, but I know it's a bone problems, so I might wanna get that looked at. When I like about all the problems I'm having with my legs, and now I have a new problem, I might REALLY want to get on making some kind of appointment.

I no longer have a time frame for when my dreads will start. My hair is yet growing out, and I'm not going to cut it. I hope this month, but I need my rubberbands and other stuff. The job thing didn't work out as well as I wanted it to, so that's a set back. Unlike my usual route, I still have a few tricks out my sleeves, so all is far from lost (for the time being).

I'm back to reading tarot cards, but I do them a short period at a time. Alot of idiots send 3 or 4 or ALL THE CARD SETS reading requests at once. Getting more than 2 request from the same email address is not only annoying, but that's easy to blow up this very basic inbox request system. I only take card requests when I know I'm not going anywhere the next day to keep myself as low stress per week, as possible.

I decided to start going to Dallas in March a few weeks ago. I thought I would have to ago alone, but I forgot my mother has a class in that wants to go to IN DALLAS! Right now, there isn't much stopping me from going to Dallas with her. I would like to have a job by then so I can have my own money when I go, but if I don't I'm not afraid to walk around, instead being able to get on the bus. I don't plan on buying much, while I'm there, aside from the bus tickets I can afford. We'll see how that goes.

That's all for now!

Friday, December 30, 2011

Something long over due.

Time to move my accounts to my main email addresses. Spam blockers are much better than they were when i first joined the net in 2000 (or so). So much HARD WORK, tho!


I'm canceling the idea to sing the 90's YuGiOh! opening and ending songs, cuz my voice sucks. I'm still going to read vol 1 of the manga, however.

I started writing fanfic right before Xmas. Here's my profile on MM.org, if you want to see them. http://www.mediaminer.org/user_info.php/58374

Life is going pretty well, right now. I'm really bored, but I'm going to try to get out of here on New Years! The only goal I have is to get my GED, and get a job.

You all have a great new year! Happy Dragon Year, in advance!